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| “I asked you to define HAPPINESS And gently, you said that it grew from braveness Like a tiny sand, sleeping tight inside the ocean’s soul Carrying tears but shall heavenly glow…” 18 years old… I did not believe in fate, I just didn’t buy it. With all honesty I’d been saving for 18 years of my existence, I strongly believed that no one could ever luck out, all of sudden, without trying REAL hard. Also, I didn’t believe in the so-called LOVE. To a stuck-up 18-year-old me, the one thing that could ever satisfy my ambitious self, would be SUCCESS. “Amongst millions of flowers out there, if you couldn’t be as beautiful, then, being smart is a MUST” Carrying those very thoughts in mind, I confidently started my new path, in a new country. And LIFE took my confidence as a challenge. 19 years old… It had been a year since I first came here. Life finally got back on me, real hard, sadly. It fixed me by making me use the language I was not familiar with. Then, culture shock, differences in minds, differences in life-styles, really got me. My confidence level went from over the top down to the shallowest end. When you knew your strength was completely blown away, you would fall into a deep fear, knowing that losing all senses of sensibility and senses of direction would be an obvious expectation... Without my beloved family, I let loneliness come into my heart; left me scars and strengthened my confusion in regard to what lies ahead. Day by day, slowly I fell into a boring circle of life that filled only with school, home, and church. I suppose that was what a student should face and be satisfied with, however, the loneliness was what really stopped us from exploring our possibility. 19 years old and 5 days… Oops, I got a message on Facebook from someone on my friend-list to whom I never once talked. _Hello there, I wonder whether or not you like drinking orange juice? “What an odd question, hmmm what’s wrong with this guy” I made a little self-talk and decided to reply him, not willingly for starter. _Not really, NO. Sorry I didn’t catch who you are and how come you popped out that weird question? _ Oh well, just because I’m browsing your facebook and I saw only negative status. And because I’m having myself orange juice, so… I couldn’t hold a small laughter after seeing what you replied. Jeez you were so quirky, seemed like too much of a weirdo. However, deep inside my heart I gained strange feelings towards you, in a good way of course. I couldn’t tell what it was but I was sure that I’d never experience such feelings. Since that day forwards, we talked every single day, sometime you just threw me some silly conversations filling with fragments. Some other times you just sent me a couples of random jokes you found on the Internet. _ Are you free this Saturday? If so would you care for a visit at the beach? This Friday is my brother’s birthday. Mine is on Monday. Only two days after our date, only if you want to :P And yes I wanted to go. However, with a strong sense of defending myself, I chose the nearby beach and set the time of 4 pm. I told you I preferred afternoon time for my own sake, cuz if you were a jerk, I could at least run for my life and scream for help. _If you really feared that much, I’m sure you wouldn’t want to go out with me :P Hmm, to me it seemed like teasing me and embarrassing me really amused youJ And out of my expectation, the very first moment I met you, you didn’t fail to surprise me, not one bit. I got all shied out walking next to you. All my concerns were about tons of make-ups I was wearing, the tight tiny dress I failed to fit in. _ Hey, you are the first girl I asked out. I have no clue of what to do, so please excuse me for any mistake… Thank God you broke the ice and that released all my worries. I couldn’t believe that I could ever meet a cute white guy with that decent and innocent personality. And you smiled again; your smile brought sweet warmth to my heart, smelt the entire SA node, AV node and disabled the entire cardiovascular system of mine lol. Out of nowhere, I found my confidence again, or was it actually the feeling of being comfortable? It got colder; you silently hold my hand and asked: _ Is that ok for me to hold your hands a bit? _ Silly, how come you asked me when you already hold my hands? And we walked away in silence, with happiness and all complex mixed feelings, combined. And I will never forget that date_ the moment we were fated to fall in love: 7/08/2010 Since that date, even you lived 22 km apart, you still drove to my house to visit me 5 times a week or more. Thank to your generosity, all the staffs at petrol stations had quite a lot of money during that whole year lol On November 2010, I caught a bad flu and bad infection. You were the only one that stayed with me 2 days long. A nurse kicked you out because that was restricted. You slept in the car, parked right outside the hospital, texting me. You didn’t want to leave, you were afraid that if you leave, I would have no one to rely on. I asked you why you love me that much. You just gently told me that you are clueless about it. If not, you would stop loving me since forever ago lol I might think too high of myself, about being all brilliant and brave in love. However, the brave, bright one is actually you. And I myself could never tell why I love you this much. Not sure if it was because you are one down to earth man? Or is it your gentleness that softens my stubbornness? Is it because you are the most positive man I have ever known in my entire life? Or is that because you let me decide everything I want? Honey I’m clueless too. If not I would stop loving you since forever ago lol I just know I love you so much, much more than how words can describe. Yes, I’m lost for word when it comes to our love. _ why do you like studying Pharmacy thingy or formulating drugs? _Oh well, I could earn good money. _ You should always choose to do things you are keen on. This kind of job will bring you lots of pressure and responsibilities; you couldn’t live with it without loving it. (Hmmm, you are just 1 year older than I am honey, why are all your words sounding so convincing?) _ Honey, this course is so tricky, I’m worrying like heck… _ Hang on baby, you sure can make it. I am sure of that. But well, if somehow you can’t, just do it again and try harder…No big deal ( Ok, how on earth you are that positive hon?) _ Honey, I think I have lost my faith…Sometimes I wondered why God was so strict. He didn’t grant me my wish… _Please don’t baby. God knows it all. God gives you what you need, not what you want. Please don’t hate him for what he hasn’t given you. Be grateful for everything he has offered you _Honey, why do you always stay positive and satisfied with life? _ Because I believe in God, He will never leave me. He gives me, you and our loved ones good health. That’s all that matters. My beloved husband, Whenever I wanted to prove something, I always started with “ I swear on the Bible that…”. You told me not to do that anymore, not in anger, but just as sweet as usual. You gently told me that you trust me no matter what, and that you don’t think it’s necessary to involve the Bible in anyway. Just with those small words, I stopped. You and your ultimate sweetness purified my soul in a way I myself even didn’t notice…. 21 years old… Still a university student I am, quirky and a messy cook, still. And yes, I still live in your love and sweetness. But a 21 year old me already knew how to keep my feet on the ground, and I knew how to be humble, how to try harder and how not to be judgmental. I’m hungry for improving myself, step by step, because of you. I kept asking myself unstoppably about the definition of success. It is not about having money, status or the beauty that catches all the attention around. Being successful is when you are totally satisfied with your life, when your heart is filled with innocence instead of selfishness. Being successful means you are happy for those who have lived in love and happiness, instead of getting all jealous of them. Being successful also means you can show your true self in front of the ones you loved, and in the presence of God. To me, having you honey is my biggest success, ever…  "Why do you keep searching for happiness… …when next to you is where it lay? Just fill your heart with joyfulness Sunshine and love shall always stay…." |
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
My story of Love
Thursday, 18 October 2012
Why I love what i do...
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| During Pharm Sci prac, with Nataliya and Phyllis |
I love my friends, I love my Uni, I love every lessons. Because i just do.
I love making drugs, learning about drugs, seeing them, hearing them. Because I just do.
I love Pharmacy, I want to become a pharmacist or a pharmaceutical Scientist. Because I just do.
I love getting along with my group mates, being with them. Because I just do.
I love the confidence I gained during the years. Because I just do.
I love Vietnam with the most innocent love. Because I just do.
I love this country. Since It offered me so muc and a wonderful husband. Because it just does...
Monday, 1 October 2012
Full-Moon festival and my little self-treat ;))
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| Jelly Orange and Watermelon jelly |
I'm a terrible terrible terrible cook :S I sometimes feel sorry for my husband since he had to put up with me during the last two years. With a busy Uni schedule, i seemed to neglect all the kitchen works which I am supported to do. *Brain-fart*
Thank God for giving me such a wonderful husband <3 He never complained about any of my food, or my creativity or my
However, It's selfish of me to keep relying on her. There is no way a daughter in law makes her M-I-L cook is considered a good thing. Hmmm to be honest, I myself would like to cook my family a nice meal and there were many times i offered that. However, my mother-in-law has a specific taste in food since she only eats a certain kinds of food, mostly home-made. She barely goes out to eat. So i guess my foods must be too much for her. Even though she was too polite to try a bit of them, with all the past food problem, plus being confessed about my cooking skills ^^", she of course should be over-protective of herself when It comes to my food lol
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| Jelly Orange |
The dish above is "Jelly-Orange", one in many of my sudden inspiration :P Today according to Vietnam's Calendar, it is "Full-Moon festival" (the name gives it away so i think you might know why we are having it :P) Basically we have this festival for every children in the country to have fun before a long school-year starts ( In Vietnam, school starts in early August- September and finishes in May in the following year, weird huh? I asked myself the same thing when i was doing schooling there :P). Anyway, for a Full-Moon feast, children were given lots of fruits, lots of candies, sweets and special "Moon-cake" (basically it is a sweet baked cake with mungbeans (green beans), red beans filling or meat, nuts and salty-egg yolk filling). Also, parents will buy them a colorful lantern to carry around the hoods, singing along in the moon light ( How romantic!)
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| A typical Full-Moon's table of fruits. There also is a puppy made from Citrus maxima (pomelo) in the very left |
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| Lanterns in Full-Moon feast |
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| Moon-Cake |
Since I'm married and old and broke, I don't favor this festival much ( might not be relevant but i like to state it :). However i did when i was 15 and under :P I guess kids like everything sweet, nice and colorful.
Back to me not celebrating full-moon feast, I didn't prepare Moon-Cake. However, i would like to make something nice, creative and EASY. Well there is an orange tree in my back yard and no one really cares about its existence, me included :P Seeing oranges dropped down on the ground somehow made me sad. What a waste! And I can't stand waiting. As soon as I woke up this afternoon ( it's my thing :P), i immediately went to the back yard to pick oranges (that's right! Just woke up, haven't brushed teeth, haven't washed face, all i thought was ORANGES ).
If you know how to make jelly, good for you! You must be a very good cook then, at least a better cook than I am. If not, don't panic, "Aeroplan Jelly" is just right for you lolololol ( I should have got paid by this brand actually tsk tsk tsk tsk).
It is instant favored jelly powder, all you have to do is to mix 1 pack of this powder with 250ml of boiling water and another 250ml of cold water. Mix them real good then pour them in any shaped bow you like, then leave them in the fridge for about 1.5 hour. Yes, THAT EASY!!!
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| The jelly powder I used |
To make my jelly orange, i used orange skin to shape my jelly instead of a bow. All you have to do is
- Buying/picking an orange or more, as many as you can afford.
- Rinse them well WITH WATER.
- Cut them in half vertically.
- Use a spoon or a knife to separate all the oranges out of their skins.
- Watch the skin with cold water and leave them in the fridge for 15 mins.
- When you have your jelly liquid ready, pour the jelly in each half of prepared orange skin and put them back in the fridge, allow them 1.5 hours to set.
- When the jelly all set, you can cut them (very carefully friends, very carefully^^") into slides and serve them with orange juice or anything your kids might like.
- (Optional) You can use orange separated from the skin for more favor or just squeeze them hard to make orange juice :P.
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| Jelly in the making! |
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| Hubby helping me to slide up the jelly. Tricky tsk tsk tricky |
Tadahhhhhhhh All is done! You are a lots clever than me, so your jelly will come out better looking and will taste nicer too ;)
Good luck and have an awesome Full-Moon festival!
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